Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Today blog might be long. I decided to write out whatever shit is in my mind. bad or good.
Do pple always wan to hide the truth so as not to spolit their reputation or wants to make pple around to think that he/she is a good person? I think most pple are. even myself.
Maybe i am over sensitive but i think the person must be "xin ji zhong"? he must have think of the consequence before he make it that way? Regarding the recent case maybe i did hide the truth from some pple cos without indepth explanation to our story. Pple will think that he/me is bad. I dun like to tell pple not really that close to me that much of my story so i choose to keep it from ple to avoid qus.. Maybe i am also like what i mention above? to portray a gd image to pple/frens ard.. I dun know. But i always think that my close frens will be supportive of me no matter what right? at least so far all mine close frens are. Maybe thats the reason why i choose them as my close fren. Thats why those non-close fren do not know cos i know they are will not behave that way. (i know its getting a bit chim, haha.) But one big difference between me and him is i kept the truth but i did not twist the story to my favour. So i am quite shocked that he might be thinking of setting it that way so that it will be in favour to him in future. Naively, i also listen to his story and somehow got convinced.
Anyway, upon some thinking i still think there MUST be some catalyst to start all these. just that he dun wanna admit it. Making him the good guy in everyone's eye. If u are my good fren, admit it, i will support ur decision no matter how wrong it is. But changing the story to favour u makes me a bit disappointed in ur behaviour.
"What is popular may not be right but What is right may not be popular"Blogging is good. i read my frens blog and i actually got to know them better. One such person makes me changes my view of her and my behaviour towards her also.
Reading her blog makes me realise that she takes every word that u said hardly. Even if its meant to be a joke. Even though she shows not offended even laughing together with it but i realised she takes it hard and can get pretty upset over it. Hence, i decided not to suan her ever again. Who knows behind my back she is hating me. Let me give some example of my past behaviour:
Conversation abt her and her bf.
Me: U always bully him hor? Treasure him hor, i think he is good.
She: I also treat him nice lo, dun always say he treat me good only. Just that i nv say mah.
Me: then u name some example what u treat him good?
She: ermm, i cover blanket for him lo. Mmm, i help him open the air con lo. (-_-") Forthis part, i dun knw if she not saying/cant find any example/or purposely cracking a joke.
Anyway, after that her blog has an entry about grumbling pple always asking her to treasure her bf, saying its none of our biz so long her bf knows. i nv realise she minded us saying that to her. (anyway, if thats not the truth, pple will not say also) pple have eye to see. So from then on i keep my mouth shut.
Her character is a super funny person. actually without her, the group will not be fun la. Though she really is a bit "chu lu" la, but its her pattern and i find it ok wa. Her own style. Guess everyone makes some comments to her before like siao cha bo, calling her names like "ru hua". She also has attitude problem which she admit herself. so we did comment to her to change lo. then she has this blog entry about pple saying her attitude la, then its none of pple biz since she behave the way she wants. Complaining that guys like sweet gal instead of gal lik her who talks loud etc. Strange. I actually like the way she is except for the attitude part. Anyway after her entry, i decide to keep my mouth shut.
Third incident: She used to get drunk everytime in the past. then after that pple starts calling her names like "the always get drunk gal". Hmm, this she also can ponder and blog. again complaining that she no longer get drunk now so stop calling her that. Ok, fine, i shut my mouth although i seldom say her abt this part.
Conclusion, i think she dun seems the way she is in person. She thinks alot and she take every little harmless comments hard. So my recent behaviour towards her:
BBQ
She bbqing and eat and eat and eat non stop. i know cant comment cos she will dulan. so i kept quiet. Then came a part:
She: Dear, i gg toilet, u help me peel the prawn hor.
Bf: Ok, its hot now.
after some time, she still around cos she waiting for a gal
She: Remember help me peel hor, i wanna eat it as soon as i come back from toilet.
Bf:ok
after sometime, dun knw why she still ard
She: dear, rem to peel hor.
Me: cannot control liao, i smile silently , "an siao". I know i cant comment anything wait for dulan and blog sia..
But she saw it, and says: wei, wendy, dun an siao hor. i saw it.
Me: aiya, funny ma.. laughing away.
EndToday, i had lunch with a fren. A close fren also. We can really talk about anything under the sun. Really is everything. and we like each other company very much. We used to be very close but after poly, we have our own life own commitments. we never went out together anymore. But when we do meet u after months or a year of no contacts, we can click very well again. I dun know why but its a nice feeling. Whenever, i work til super sian or i dun feel like lunching with my colleague or when i have problems to confide, i will look for her. She always support me too. (like what i mention above, coincidence? are my close fren are like that).
Anyway, I always think she is a very nice gf. Really is very nice. I have so many gals frens ard. she is one of the best gf a guy can have. She has looks, she is very faithful (more faithful than me), she is good tempered ( i think she seldom throw temper to bf like i did), she always listen to what he says(though she might not like it), she did a lot of things for him. Ya, she so good i wil be happier if her bf is good to her. Ermm, not that he is not gd la but the way he treat her is not better or should i say nt even at par with any of my bf in my life lo. I am not as good as her towards our bf, so if i can have such bf who care so much for me, treat me quite well. than why cant she has when obviously she is a better gal? See, i feeling xin tong for her.
I used to feel quite bother abut the way he treats her so i did scold her to do some things. Becos i care. But she dun like it even got angry with my comments. so in future, i kept quiet.
Actually he is not that bad also.. Let me quote some examples and u all see if my standard too high or she too gd:
Sometimes when he is very tired, he did not escort her home though he gave her cab fare home. but last update i think he did not even go downstair to wait for cab with her.
She always go to his house herself. When she asks him to wait for her at his bus stop, he did it though quite reluctantly. He dun like waiting so he ask her about to reach than call him. so end up she always wait for him to reach the bus stop cos he dun like to wait.
He did not do things like acompanying her to work or to school or wait for her outside school then escort her home.
He dun let her go clubbing unless there is him. I think he is afraid of pple "ta shan" her. [afraid of losing then why dun u treasure her now?]
The only time he fold those hearts or "zi he" thing for her is when she wanted a breakup.
When she offered to pei him go classes, (he also ACCA), he dun want. I know he is lying but i kept quiet. He told her she is nt allowed in classes. and gave excuses like she will be bored. I am surprised by his behaviour. How come u dun want ur gf to pei u?
Anyway thats all i can think for now. is he good or bad? Seriously, u wan me to say some good one, ermm, ermm, i really cant think of any. So why is she still with him? good qu that i have been pondering since poly.. I have been waiting for them to breakup. haha. i know i am bad but i just want my fren to be happier. Mmm, he is actually not a bad bf, but definitely not a gd one too. In fact what i mentioned above is not she grumble to me one, i got all these info from talking to her about my bf. then she says hers never do all these things. Even hearing what i said about my bf, she is not affected. she thinks that she is happy the way she is. strange..
I told her to insist that he send her home or at least pei her downstair to take cab. i think this is the most basic bf must do list liao lor. I say if he dun do it, tell him she wun go find him again. Logical right? I am worry for her safely lei. End up she got angry with me. Dun know for what. sighs, some gals are strange. or am i strange?
The other time, i just break up with someone, i cant remember what we said. but somehow someone commented that i am dominating the relationship and i expect him to listen to me. i told her and she nodded and agreed. I am shocked. She actually thought that i always wan my bf to do what i want, what i said. Somehow, some things that we said lead me to realise that she actually thinks that she is behaving normally as a gf shld b. Like what i mention above of what he treat her not gd, she thinks its norm. but what i expected the guy must do, she think i am dominating/unreasonable. Ermm, quite lost. so am i normal or is she normal?
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Today blog might be long. I decided to write out whatever shit is in my mind. bad or good.
Do pple always wan to hide the truth so as not to spolit their reputation or wants to make pple around to think that he/she is a good person? I think most pple are. even myself.
Maybe i am over sensitive but i think the person must be "xin ji zhong"? he must have think of the consequence before he make it that way? Regarding the recent case maybe i did hide the truth from some pple cos without indepth explanation to our story. Pple will think that he/me is bad. I dun like to tell pple not really that close to me that much of my story so i choose to keep it from ple to avoid qus.. Maybe i am also like what i mention above? to portray a gd image to pple/frens ard.. I dun know. But i always think that my close frens will be supportive of me no matter what right? at least so far all mine close frens are. Maybe thats the reason why i choose them as my close fren. Thats why those non-close fren do not know cos i know they are will not behave that way. (i know its getting a bit chim, haha.) But one big difference between me and him is i kept the truth but i did not twist the story to my favour. So i am quite shocked that he might be thinking of setting it that way so that it will be in favour to him in future. Naively, i also listen to his story and somehow got convinced.
Anyway, upon some thinking i still think there MUST be some catalyst to start all these. just that he dun wanna admit it. Making him the good guy in everyone's eye. If u are my good fren, admit it, i will support ur decision no matter how wrong it is. But changing the story to favour u makes me a bit disappointed in ur behaviour.
"What is popular may not be right but What is right may not be popular"Blogging is good. i read my frens blog and i actually got to know them better. One such person makes me changes my view of her and my behaviour towards her also.
Reading her blog makes me realise that she takes every word that u said hardly. Even if its meant to be a joke. Even though she shows not offended even laughing together with it but i realised she takes it hard and can get pretty upset over it. Hence, i decided not to suan her ever again. Who knows behind my back she is hating me. Let me give some example of my past behaviour:
Conversation abt her and her bf.
Me: U always bully him hor? Treasure him hor, i think he is good.
She: I also treat him nice lo, dun always say he treat me good only. Just that i nv say mah.
Me: then u name some example what u treat him good?
She: ermm, i cover blanket for him lo. Mmm, i help him open the air con lo. (-_-") Forthis part, i dun knw if she not saying/cant find any example/or purposely cracking a joke.
Anyway, after that her blog has an entry about grumbling pple always asking her to treasure her bf, saying its none of our biz so long her bf knows. i nv realise she minded us saying that to her. (anyway, if thats not the truth, pple will not say also) pple have eye to see. So from then on i keep my mouth shut.
Her character is a super funny person. actually without her, the group will not be fun la. Though she really is a bit "chu lu" la, but its her pattern and i find it ok wa. Her own style. Guess everyone makes some comments to her before like siao cha bo, calling her names like "ru hua". She also has attitude problem which she admit herself. so we did comment to her to change lo. then she has this blog entry about pple saying her attitude la, then its none of pple biz since she behave the way she wants. Complaining that guys like sweet gal instead of gal lik her who talks loud etc. Strange. I actually like the way she is except for the attitude part. Anyway after her entry, i decide to keep my mouth shut.
Third incident: She used to get drunk everytime in the past. then after that pple starts calling her names like "the always get drunk gal". Hmm, this she also can ponder and blog. again complaining that she no longer get drunk now so stop calling her that. Ok, fine, i shut my mouth although i seldom say her abt this part.
Conclusion, i think she dun seems the way she is in person. She thinks alot and she take every little harmless comments hard. So my recent behaviour towards her:
BBQ
She bbqing and eat and eat and eat non stop. i know cant comment cos she will dulan. so i kept quiet. Then came a part:
She: Dear, i gg toilet, u help me peel the prawn hor.
Bf: Ok, its hot now.
after some time, she still around cos she waiting for a gal
She: Remember help me peel hor, i wanna eat it as soon as i come back from toilet.
Bf:ok
after sometime, dun knw why she still ard
She: dear, rem to peel hor.
Me: cannot control liao, i smile silently , "an siao". I know i cant comment anything wait for dulan and blog sia..
But she saw it, and says: wei, wendy, dun an siao hor. i saw it.
Me: aiya, funny ma.. laughing away.
EndToday, i had lunch with a fren. A close fren also. We can really talk about anything under the sun. Really is everything. and we like each other company very much. We used to be very close but after poly, we have our own life own commitments. we never went out together anymore. But when we do meet u after months or a year of no contacts, we can click very well again. I dun know why but its a nice feeling. Whenever, i work til super sian or i dun feel like lunching with my colleague or when i have problems to confide, i will look for her. She always support me too. (like what i mention above, coincidence? are my close fren are like that).
Anyway, I always think she is a very nice gf. Really is very nice. I have so many gals frens ard. she is one of the best gf a guy can have. She has looks, she is very faithful (more faithful than me), she is good tempered ( i think she seldom throw temper to bf like i did), she always listen to what he says(though she might not like it), she did a lot of things for him. Ya, she so good i wil be happier if her bf is good to her. Ermm, not that he is not gd la but the way he treat her is not better or should i say nt even at par with any of my bf in my life lo. I am not as good as her towards our bf, so if i can have such bf who care so much for me, treat me quite well. than why cant she has when obviously she is a better gal? See, i feeling xin tong for her.
I used to feel quite bother abut the way he treats her so i did scold her to do some things. Becos i care. But she dun like it even got angry with my comments. so in future, i kept quiet.
Actually he is not that bad also.. Let me quote some examples and u all see if my standard too high or she too gd:
Sometimes when he is very tired, he did not escort her home though he gave her cab fare home. but last update i think he did not even go downstair to wait for cab with her.
She always go to his house herself. When she asks him to wait for her at his bus stop, he did it though quite reluctantly. He dun like waiting so he ask her about to reach than call him. so end up she always wait for him to reach the bus stop cos he dun like to wait.
He did not do things like acompanying her to work or to school or wait for her outside school then escort her home.
He dun let her go clubbing unless there is him. I think he is afraid of pple "ta shan" her. [afraid of losing then why dun u treasure her now?]
The only time he fold those hearts or "zi he" thing for her is when she wanted a breakup.
When she offered to pei him go classes, (he also ACCA), he dun want. I know he is lying but i kept quiet. He told her she is nt allowed in classes. and gave excuses like she will be bored. I am surprised by his behaviour. How come u dun want ur gf to pei u?
Anyway thats all i can think for now. is he good or bad? Seriously, u wan me to say some good one, ermm, ermm, i really cant think of any. So why is she still with him? good qu that i have been pondering since poly.. I have been waiting for them to breakup. haha. i know i am bad but i just want my fren to be happier. Mmm, he is actually not a bad bf, but definitely not a gd one too. In fact what i mentioned above is not she grumble to me one, i got all these info from talking to her about my bf. then she says hers never do all these things. Even hearing what i said about my bf, she is not affected. she thinks that she is happy the way she is. strange..
I told her to insist that he send her home or at least pei her downstair to take cab. i think this is the most basic bf must do list liao lor. I say if he dun do it, tell him she wun go find him again. Logical right? I am worry for her safely lei. End up she got angry with me. Dun know for what. sighs, some gals are strange. or am i strange?
The other time, i just break up with someone, i cant remember what we said. but somehow someone commented that i am dominating the relationship and i expect him to listen to me. i told her and she nodded and agreed. I am shocked. She actually thought that i always wan my bf to do what i want, what i said. Somehow, some things that we said lead me to realise that she actually thinks that she is behaving normally as a gf shld b. Like what i mention above of what he treat her not gd, she thinks its norm. but what i expected the guy must do, she think i am dominating/unreasonable. Ermm, quite lost. so am i normal or is she normal?
*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
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